Anyone who knows me, knows I love a bit of vintage, the style, the class and just everything. I love a good swing dress nothing makes me feel more womanly and pretty. When I’m all dressed up I could almost pass as a lady, however anyone who knows me also would know I love the English language. I particularly think that one should always use every word which you have at your disposal. Obviously it goes without saying that some words that are not used, these are those words which are used only to severely hurt others, though one would say that when we become fearful of a word we give it power, when a word without power is nothing but letters.
Whilst I dress like a starlet, mostly, some would say I have the mouth of a harlot, though I have a… well lets call it colourful use of the English language, I am also quite straight forward with the things I say. If I think you are being a bit of a twat, I am telling you ‘You’re being a twat’ I do think life is too short and far too stressful to suffer fools easily.
So whilst I am looking fabulous and insulting everyone I meet, not really, just the twits I encounter, I do love to craft. However just under a year ago I lost my confidence, three women, decided they had a problem with me because I deleted two of them from Facebook, I was actually deleting everyone from it, but got stuck after deleting two hundred as Facebook wouldn’t let me delete any more. So they said things to the third woman and suddenly I was a bully. Laughable really, as I tried to help anyone I could especially the third woman but well people believed it…
I removed all of those people from my Facebook and my life but it shook me. I began to feel as though there was something wrong with me as a person, especially when life has not been particularly kind over the years, I have had bullies in my life since childhood, my health has been bad, my children have had issues and it makes me feel so overwhelmed.
I don’t know how to get the confidence back, but I really want to try to get there.
It is just a shame that these women, who were old enough to know better, could do so much damage. I am sure each thought it would be okay, a little bit of vengeance for deleting off Facebook, though I will never know the thirds motivation, make me feel bad and that’s that. I wonder if they would have still done it if they had of known the damage they would really do…
But now I am trying to put that behind me, look like a starlet and as for my confidence… I shall just have to fake it till I make it…
Whatever happens, don’t forget to always stay fabulous
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